New Hat

Little Darling leaves his new owl hat on for roughly one minute, which is substantially longer than the normal immediate removal of other hats. I guess he likes it as much as I do. He's finally feeling better today, thank the good Lord. I've spent the whole week home with him, which initially really stressed me out (to be missing class) but with every day of lolly gagging around with Ezra I minded it less and less. Luckily my teachers are all very flexible this term, and I don't think I'll fail or get a worse grade because of missing this week.

Child care stress continues. I don't know how much I've gone into it, but I had been taking Ezra very far, 3 hours on the bus every day. The woman who was taking care of his is absolutely wonderful, so it was worth it. I got a lot of reading done on the bus as well. But, about two weeks ago I found a new place on four blocks from my house. Great! I thought, and they are fine people, but I recently learned that they have NO experience with babies. Children ages 3-5, yes, babies, no. Which, yes, you learn as you go, but... I just don't know about them learning about babies with my baby. I wouldn't be good at all with babies previous to my recent intensive training.

It struck me when the lead gal was asking me why Ezra cries so much. Excuse me? Cries so much? At the last place the woman knew how to keep him content. I don't want to hear that he cries so much. Forty minutes on the bus thinking about him crying is way longer than 3 hours knowing that he's happy, fed, and loved.

So, I found another place that's close by and run by a mom. The only glitch is that they don't do cloth diapers, which is a better glitch than being so far or Ezra crying for sure. So $40 extra dollars a month in disposable diapers and that much more trash. We are going to try it out this week.

If it doesn't work out I'm going back the original. She was so good at getting him to eat, he was so delightfully chubby. Not that he's skinny now, but he's certainly thinner. I can see his ribs. I want his rolls back.

In the process of all this 3 new grey hairs sprouted from behind my bangs. Hmph. Then of course this week makes me just want to be with him all day every day. Oh the trials of mama.

Let's hope the new place works! Phew.